Logan asked me today ‘What did they say?
He knew that I had talked to Jackson, my parents and my sisters, even some friends. He wanted to know what others had told me when I told them.
What could they say…. What should they say?
Everyone is very empathetic, they all said they were very sorry to hear this news.
Of course they asked how I was taking it, tried to lift my spirits (even though by day 2 I actually was ok with the news, in good spirits).
Many asked how I found out, whether I was having any symptoms. I wasn’t, I only discovered this through a physical which showed a high PSA level.
A common theme among both family and friends was offering advice, or at least asking what alternatives there was for treatment.
The best thing so far was actually from Logan, a day later as he got home from work he asked outright, “So what are you going to do now that you have cancer?”
That is a very direct question, full of possibilities.
And it was what I actually asked myself shortly after I heard the news. It was about halfway home from Calgary, I had told my Dad before I left the city, was tearful and sad driving out.
As I drove though, a calmness came over me and I thought, ‘What is next, What am I going to do?’
The first thing I decided was there would be some changes, I knew that.
Second, I also decided I would not do anything rash or stupid. It was more of a feeling that now the pieces would fall into place for me. I would make the decisions going forward that needed to be made, and I had this feeling that the decisions would be right. I felt I now had this beacon directing me.
I also felt I was not in a hurry to make any decisions. I have changed so many things in the last couple years, and more to come, but each decision would have it’s time and place. No reason to decide everything at once.
Life changing in more ways than one.