I went into this optimistic, I thrive on information, the more I know, the better I feel.
At the same I have been emotional over the last week as I prepared to go to this information seminar.
I thought it would be much of the same information as I had researched… but I knew there would be some new info, and some more details, as we would be hearing directly from the doctors that do the treatment.
Various feelings came and went as this day grew closer.
I spent the morning watching some various videos to keep my mind positive, one on some alternative therapy, another from Wayne Dyer on positivity and getting what you want.
I knew with time some of these various emotions and feelings and other things would go away.
But still there was….
Fear
I was scared
I felt alone
As I got in the room I noticed most people had somebody with them.
One or two other guys were alone.
One guy had his daughter with him.
I was sure I was the youngest guy in the room.
Prostate cancer is usually an old man’s disease.
There were a couple guys that were maybe a few years older than me.
The presentation was focused on treatment options…. As in remove/kill cancer before it spreads.
It all seemed very mundane.. so very clinical.
The one presenter joked a bit, not in a negative way, and it helped keep it light, although it teared at me….
One definite theme in all the different options was to go in knowing all the adverse affects.
With most of the treatments there was about a 15-20 percent chance of complications.
And basically any of the treatments have approximately 50 percent chance of loss of erectile function.
Although that may improve over time as the nerve damage heals.
I need to know the facts on all of it…. Part of who I am.
It helps me to know. the facts, know the data, know all the information.
None of the treatment options sound good.
I NEED TO FIND A CURE.
FIND A ALTERNATIVE TREATMENT!
I have started down that path, and I need to do more……
On the way out an older couple were talking.. She was grilling him with questions on which option he wanted… I could tell he needed time to think… To digest the info.. But she kept asking.. wanting him to give an answer..
It made me stressed even more.
The pressure to know what to do.
Life Changing Definitely……