Melancholy
a feeling of pensive sadness, typically with no obvious cause
Hmmmmmmmm
So what does Pensive mean
engaged in, involving, or reflecting deep or serious thought
Exactly what I am feeling/thinking…. my emotional state…
But no obvious cause…… hmmmmm…. interesting.
Can I pinpoint the cause….
Is it my diagnoses of prostate cancer?
Is it a feeling of loneliness?
Is it my current relationship status… or lack of it?
Is it my overall health?
Is it my life situation…. on the brink of finalizing my divorce… and all the emotional baggage that goes with it?
Yep – definitely no obvious cause.
I don’t have a lot of days like this….. it takes a lot to knock the optimism out of me…..
But yes… all those factors plus more have set me back today……
Left me Melancholy.
A good word… I like that word… as it describes what I am (feeling, thinking, emotional state… etc) right now so well.
Initial impulse… get out of this Melancholy state….. find a way to be happy, to cheer up. Do something fun…
But… maybe there is value in this… maybe I need to take some time to feel these emotions… to experience this…. maybe…. not really sure