I will admit since I separated from my wife the quiet days are always tougher than the busy days.
There have been many many very hard and emotional days.
Since the cancer diagnoses… actually the calmness I have been feeling has helped.
Less emotional turmoil in those quiet days.
But they are still hard.
Thoughts creep in.. worries… fears….
It is hard to still the mind… actually my mind never seems to be still.
I’ve tried meditating…. that helped at first, but lately it only allows my mind to increase the anxiety.
Being in nature definitely helps… I am yearning for summer when I can easily spend time outdoors. The warmth, the green… all seems to slow my mind down, allows the emotions to slow down as well.
For now, I need to keep busy, keep focused.
At the same time, learn how to deal with the quiet days.