Farm Boy or ….
The Journey.
Changes.
Looking back on where we come from, who we really are.
Our own spiritual story……
No longer black and white, Aetheist vs. Christian vs. ???
Science is even merging with spirituality now with the latest discoveries around energy and quantum physics.
For me…. yes a farm boy, grew up with dirt everywhere…lol
Is it just dirt….. or is there something deeper, Grounded…
Growing up on the farm, so many memories.
Cows, pigs, chickens, sheep, ducks, geese, cats and dogs.
Wheat and Barley, Sweet Clover and Brome Grass.
As well as hours under the moon and stars, and in the hot sunshine.
So much of those feelings, that connection is coming back now.
Not a yearning, but a connection, to nature, the land, the animals, plants….
even life and death.
You see a lot of that on the farm, each year a new crop, new babies, a new start.
And also death, that happens too, it is part of life.
Part of the memories is also searching for answers, religion, God, Jesus, or ???
Some of it felt right, others parts didn’t.
But what always felt right was the call to nature.
I had a number of ‘sacred’ spots back then growing up.
Places I would go and sit, be alone, feel the earth, become grounded, reconnect with my thoughts, my feelings.
It was part of what I always did.
I can close my eyes now and be there, at the top of the hill next to the windy tree, looking over the slough filled with ducks, a light breeze blowing.
Or a crisp night, while checking calves, looking up at the moon, the stars, the northern lights, sitting quiet as a newborn baby calf would take her first drink of milk from her mother’s udder.
I miss it yes, but it is part of me, always has been.
Do I have the answers yet, as I have reached a half century on this planet?
Yes and No…..
I now know that spirituality has always been in me, always a connection deeper than I really knew.
I also know there is no limits, there is always more to learn, more to do, more connections to make, more LOVE to accept and to give.
From the outside I am sure my life has not looked to ‘Spiritual’.
Just a farm boy, a business man, a dad, a coach, a volunteer…..
That’s what you see from the outside.
In fact for some of it, I didn’t feel it, I was too busy with ‘life’, working, kids, surviving……
But it has been there, and always will, in so many ways, so many lessons, such a deep connection to mother earth.